I said “YES”
When people ask me why I moved from London to Barcelona my answer is always the same: I said “YES” because I didn’t want to live with any regrets.
After 10 years I finally called London ‘home’. But that was about to change. My father was dying.
2015 was a blur as I blindly followed my intuition. In some ways it didn’t make ANY sense, but now looking back I can see the connections and how divinely guided everything was.
It was a tough year. But somehow, someway, I held out hope that it would reveal itself.
It’s nearly four years to the day. I flew back to London from Ibiza and next day to Los Angeles.
We were celebrating life.
Surrounded by friends who travelled from around the world, we took residence in an Ibiza villa my husband won two years prior at auction for neurosurgeon’s Alfredo Quiñones-Hinojosa of Johns Hopkins School of Medicine (aka Dr. Q) pro bono work with children. This was a topic near and dear to our hearts.
It was here that I received the call from my mother. After a decade my father would succumb his battle to the brain tumours. My heart ached. I could feel this time was different. Whether he had minutes, hours or days we didn’t know, but he was going.
That trip to LA was the most difficult. He waited for me and that’s all that mattered. And for that I’m forever grateful. I stayed as long I could but eventually went back to my husband and children. That was the last time I saw my father on this earthly plane. It wasn’t until I was back in London that he transitioned peacefully with my mother at his side.
As much as I love my father, in truth we didn’t have a close relationship growing up.
Can you relate?
After being on a personal growth path for a decade and coaching clients for five, it’s actually common for our generation and those before us to have not felt safe to feel and express our emotions. We’re all victims of victims doing the best we can with the upbringing and resources available to us.
I wasn’t alone. And you’re not alone either.
My father was a man of few words – a Filipino immigrant and US war veteran who deeply believed in the American dream. I could count on one had how many times he said “I love you”. There were stories, not my own, of shame and guilt that carried with me all the way from birth.
I didn’t understand how my childhood affected my adulthood. I didn’t connect how my mother and father modelled love, marriage and life in general would ultimately affect me consciously and unconsciously (more on my upcoming book). Yet it seeped into the people and things I chose to love and give my energy to, thinking they would bring me joy and fulfilment.
It wasn’t until I started doing the inner work on myself and took ownership of my healing and happiness that I finally saw my father beyond his parental role.
According to metaphysical text A Course in Miracles, a miracle is a shift in perception.
With heart-felt compassion I stopped trying to be understood by him and simply understand him. He too was a spiritual being having a human experience – a man with his own fears and limiting beliefs. In those moments the miracles happened – the love, the peace and most importantly forgiveness. There was a S H I F T in me and in my inner world that changed the way I viewed the outside world.
Even though he could no longer speak, it was during his time on hospice care that I’d felt the closest to him. I was getting a crash course on what I studied all those year with my spiritual teachers – that before we incarnate we choose our parents on this earth to learn the lessons to spiritually evolve.
So what was the divine reason for it all? What did I learn?
A lot. Some days answers still unfold, but what I know so far is that I was finally able to see and experience the MIRACLE and S H I F T my perception. I learned forgiveness. I learned to choose love over fear and if necessary, always choose again. And of course, I learned there’s no time like the present.
Grief is sacred. It’s a process not an event. Grief can come in many forms – the loss of a job, a loved one, or even stepping into a new iteration of yourself by moving city/country or breaking off a relationship. It can take a week, a year or even a lifetime.
The greater the emotional pain the greater the desire to learn the most, fast. Having deep loss and suffering is not punishment for doing something wrong in our past lifetime. As a soul we chose this path and every experience is meant for us to have the most impact to share in this world.
After death comes rebirth. Every moment brings an opportunity for expansion, connection and creation. The most beautiful people and ideas have come from pain and suffering.
My father (with the Universe) divinely guided our Barcelona move, making it as smooth as possible. We thought the soonest would be in one year but They had something bigger planned. Our children received a spot in the school of our choice for THAT September. Our offer on our first choice apartment was accepted. Two months after his passing, we were driving our packed car across France to our new Mediterranean life – with no regrets.
Since then things I NEVER thought possible have been happening every step of the way, acting as affirmations of this Truth. After uprooting our life I facilitated my own retreats, I booked speaking engagements across London and Barcelona, I started writing my book and my children moved to an American international school – ALL dreams of mine for so long. But none of them transpired in London. They only started happening after I took a leap of FAITH.
I tell you this story because what I learned is that if it’s possible for me, it’s possible for you.
Sometimes our life blows up so we can blow up.
It’s through the seeming hardship that our heart cracks wide open and our spirit is invested to step forward.
We step into more of who we are and who we came here to be. It can be downright painful and scary, but one day,
I promise you will bless the thing that broke you down and cracked you open because the world needs you open.
There’s a divine reason in all of it.
In the words of American poet Mary Oliver,
“Tell me. What is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?”
Do you yearn to feel more peace, joy and love than you’ve ever thought possible?
Do you wonder if you can have a life much bigger than you have now?
Are you ready to live with no regrets?
Beautiful, I got you.
I’ve spent so much time and money (read: six figures in healers, coaches, teachers, trainings and workshops) in personal development not with the primary intention of making it a business but because I wanted to heal myself first.
And I’ve gone deep. I’ve worked with some incredible teachers, everything from European shamans to American Masterminds and Oprah’s top named spiritual teachers.
We can only take others as far as we have gone ourselves. I never coach someone on something if I’m not on the other side. And I always have my own coach.
I would be honoured to help you or someone you love to move forward.
in celebration of life and on the anniversary of my father’s transition, I’ve created an exclusive offering, S H I F T, because I want you to experience the freedom and joy that comes from simple and consistent shifts in your thinking and actions.
Ready to experience the miracles in all aspects of your daily life, including your relationships, finances, body, and self-image?
In this program you’ll receive the tools, practices, love and guidance to release your fear and allow gratitude, forgiveness, and love to flow through without fail.
When you sign up for the S H I F T you’ll receive:
- 3 one-hour online coaching sessions via Zoom* (value €750)
- 1 one-hour remote energy healing session (value €100)
- 1 personalized doTERRA essential oil roller blend** (value €30)
- Manifest Abundance Masterclass Digital (value €20)
- Award-winning Give Yourself Permission Anthology ebook (value €9)
*All sessions must be take within 3 months of purchase at any frequency.
**Will ship to anywhere in the world
Early bird investment: Only €499!!!
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Early bird ends Sunday June 16th at 11:59pm CET! After that the investment goes up to €799
Remember: You hold the key to your own happiness and freedom. The S H I F T experience can support you to light up from within and step into your potential.
I see you Leslie. I feel you. I honour you, all that you have been, all that you are, and all that you will become.
Once you begin the S H I F T, your life will never be the same. The time is now.
Do you hear the call? Will you pick up or let it go straight to voicemail?
Experience the miracles NOW.
Much love and many blessings,